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Grateful

2011-11-01T11:22:00.003+08:00

Over the years i've been trying to find a parable that best describe the situation of what we've been through..and of how grateful we were (and still are) cause things happened (even if it's bad) for a reason.

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There's a story about a farmer who finds a horse. Very happy he uses the horse to work on the farm and everyone in the village thinks that he's so lucky to have found a horse.

The next day, his son working with the horse falls from the horse and ends up losing his leg.
the whole village think, how bad that because of the horse the son lost a leg.

Then war starts and the army come to recruit all the sons to go to war, but since his son is missing a leg, he stays home instead of getting killed in the war.

November 1st

2011-11-01T09:23:00.003+08:00

2 years ago, today marked my first day with my current employer. Today it marks the first day of my resignation notice.

Oprah’s Love Letter To You!

2011-11-01T09:16:00.001+08:00

Lifted this from here.

Love the powerful quotes, help me get through my days when i needed one..

'micro-blogging'

2011-09-27T13:59:00.003+08:00

> Were awakened from sleep by house-rattling thunder at 4am!
> Didn't send Pirate to school cos of heavy rain.
> Left the house at 9.45am.
> Being honked at infront of the roundabout near YM school with no reason. Show the stupid driver the 'finger' and the 'tongue'.
> Had lunch at 5 Sails with colleagues. Listen to Dyg story of how she left the house at 8ish in the morning and only reach Magellan at 9am. Bad traffic jam from Penampang highway up to Magellan!
> Feeling thankful and 'blissful' for leaving the house so freakin' late this morning.
> Unusable toilet! Should i just brace for it?! Naa...

Letter To Self

2011-09-20T15:48:00.002+08:00

Dear Chris,

I know that you are tired, sleepy and hungry. I know that your body sore all over but i don't want you to give up. Remind yourself that it's only been 9 days with a couple of 'leaks' days since you started your fight for better body. I call it a fight rather than it is a journey cos that's what it is..a fight!

So don't give up!!You don't want to be 'the biggest looser' on your sister's wedding now do you?! Don't give up!! I promise that you'll look and feel wonderful after you win this fight! Promise!

Yours truly.

Nosy Nosy

2011-09-20T10:44:00.003+08:00

I just feel like ranting today,,and so i did..
Ranting with my fingers rather than my mouth is something i always enjoy doing..:)

I went straight to office today after sending Pirate to school. Pirate was 10 minutes late coz i purposely left the house at 7.25am..ha!

I parked quite far from the main entrance, right at the end of the office building to be exact. And as i got out i saw a couple of 'U' staff looking with the 'why she parked there?' expression and as i was walking towards the main entrance 'I' driver asked why i parked 'very far away', to get away easily, i answered coyly.

Wondered why some people are so nosy..it's none of anybody's business and i didn't even park at marked parking lots either. I think some people should get a life rather than poking their noses into other people business.

Sick

2011-06-30T10:28:00.002+08:00

I was and have been sick, excruciating back pain, diarrhea, mucle pain
and now..flu and fever are coming,,I do hope they don't stay long..damn!

Since i have decided to resign from my current job in November. And i can't wait for it!! Really excited! I have decided that.., in the meantime, while in the waiting, I got to have some things or some projects to do to kill time. Coz it's getting really boring to keep counting days. And what more exciting than to have 'Slim Project'..and i hope this time i stick to it!

Duration of Slim Project : 5 months (July 11-Nov 11)
Commence on : 1st July 11
Goal : To lose 2kg per month (10kg)

The Vow 2012

2011-06-14T08:21:00.001+08:00

Reminder to self!
Must!Must!Watch this!
Hopefully it'll be played in Tawau cinema..
will be showing Valentine's Day 2012

2011-06-07T13:17:00.002+08:00

After what has been like a year now..
I suddenly knelt down on my knees and prayed last night..
I found myself more matured in my praying.

I prayed again this morning..
and not very happy with it
as there were so much going on in my head..

2011-06-06T12:32:00.002+08:00

Gosh! I've got soo many things to yack about i just don't know where to start!
After spending one week with hub i was attacked with yet another separation anxiety when he left yesterday. Thought with time i'll get used to the temporary separation but no. With time..it just keep getting worse. So much so that i couldn't sleep well last night. I blamed it on the hot weather but who am i to fool. Maybe i have used up all my tears coz what's left are a few small drops of tears and this throbbing pain in my heart every time he left. Sometimes i tried to hide the tears from the children but most of the time i just melted.

Happiness??

2011-05-23T09:45:00.002+08:00

So i was searching for the latest pictures taken during the makeup competition in KK Times square and once i hit 'enter', Clare's other blog popped as one of the search result.

Reading on her Mays' entry i realised that she too trying to get answer for the same question that's been bugging me for weeks now..

Am i happy?

But then what truly define the answer to that ultimate question?

I love reading Eat,Pray,Love, it gives me different insights about life. For the first time also i now know the difference between pray and meditate..

I hope i can finish the book in another week to come as as of right now i only reached the middle chapter of India and i bought the book middle of April. Normally i can finish one book regardless of thickness in 3-4 days tops but this one took me forever to finish coz i really read it word by word..

Set to Private View

2011-04-28T07:40:00.002+08:00

I've set the settings to this blog to private so that only i can view this blog.

I need a space to shout out without having to worry that i might offended anybody.

So this is it then...

my sanctuary..

A Lot On Mind?

2011-04-20T14:21:00.003+08:00

I am pissed! Why the hell couldn't i logged on to my stupid blog every time i sensed this flow..this river of creativity coming!
Juice of creativity didn't come very often especially in this age of mine
where i just tend to forget even the simplest thing!! Like this morning i was wondering how could i possible be washing the second dish when i couldn't even remember washing the first one!

Damn!Damn!Damn!

Damn!Damn!Damn! I'm doomed!

2011-04-13T14:58:00.002+08:00

To say there's nothing to blog about is an understatement..
My feet hurts, and that's all i want to say.
Went to CM with Herv just now with the intention of
getting a copy of 'Eat,Pray,Love' but to my disapointment,
it's not available..
CM's bookstore is seriously lacking a lot of good books..
Other than those which i've already bought, can't find any new ones..
Can't even get sinchan's cd there..
but if you're looking for or interested in non-branded-highly-
expensive shoes, CM is the place to be..

My Days Off!

2010-10-22T06:20:00.002+08:00

the days i've been waiting for are here baby!

nothing beats a nice cup of coffee with my favourite mags (which by the way, have collecting dusts on the floor) and my favourite tv channel at 5.30 freakin' morning!

i just wish i can turn this built-in alarm clock off of my body!

for the record

2010-10-19T10:59:00.002+08:00

I am sick today..

BLOG..LESS

2010-10-01T15:14:00.003+08:00

No thanks to my infinite paper works, I have not been blogging for 3 straight months!

Will be having coral salads with bacon for dinner tonight..

And that lads & gents are 2 random facts of me for now.

June 30th Post

2010-06-30T15:17:00.002+08:00

I haven't been blogging much lately as the internet connection in the office is getting much worse than the day before for the past couple of months.

I am contemplating to get my very own internet line a.k.a broadband but keep delaying the result of the contemplation.

I have written some posts to be updated in my blog but keep forgetting to save it into the thumbdrive..

I am actually just starting to write down my own food journal. Keeping tab of every little thing that goes into my tummy. You may ask why do i even bother to do this...well..actually, i have decided to loose 44 pounds in 6 months and this time i really want to achieve this.

O...i am also going to blog about some cleansing products that i just bought from Daiso (a Japanese store) for only RM5 each. I'll post up pictures later.

damn toothache

2010-05-12T09:54:00.003+08:00

Why do i have toothache?
I try to remember the last time i had sweets but can't..
I try to remember the last time i brushed and it was this morning...
meaning to say i'm obeying the rules for how to avoid having a toothache...
damn..

I was alone in the office..*again* not the entire building obviously just
this department of mine..
everybody else is outstation/sending docs/going to clinics..
cat not around so the mice come out and play..**haha**except for me..
i'm the good mouse...(so to say) if not for the damn toothache i might
be out playing somewhere..

today is May 12th..i still have 15 days to plan for the holiday..
not sure where to bring the kids..
but one thing for sure...i am sure going to iron my hair..
been putting this on hold for quite a while..

Talking about on-hold..
the 'about-me-moving-to-Twu' has been put on hold as well..
hub said he was 'transferable' anytime anywhere
am i supposed to be happy? or am i supposed to be sad?
i don't know..
i realised that i have been having this
i don't know fever for some time
and i've got to put a fullstop to this..
i can't just put my life on-hold
waiting for something to happen..
waiting for anything to happen..

Life has to move on
MY life has to get moving..
MY kids' lives have to get a lil bit of colour..
as the second half of the year is approaching
i will have to plan to get some of the i-want-to-do stuff going
baking,cooking,reading, nail art, make-up, redecorating the whole house..

Plan,plan,plan..
i hope all goes well..

2010-05-05T13:46:00.002+08:00

I've been out from the radar for a while due to connection failure from the port to my pc..
but hey!..i'm here now..

Life has been boring and it starting to take its toll....i feel restless and sleepy..
Sometimes i feel like i waited for something to happen..something 'boom!' and it
changes the pattern of my life..
i think it's good to have some bumpy roads ahead..

Maybe..living in Twu is the right option..
but what if i get bored there too?!
is it possible?!
when i was with the person i love..
i don't know
only time will tell..

have been having these weird dreams..

**sigh**

2010-04-22T12:39:00.003+08:00

Somebody told me that someone said i'm snobbish..
I am not surprised..coz sometimes i can be snobbish..
I suspected that i am suffering from multiple personality disorder..
hahahhaha...
coz i can be really friendly to you one minute
and treat you like a stranger the next minute..
**sigh**
why o why, i just don't know why..

I am..

2010-04-09T09:49:00.004+08:00

hooked on drama series now..
I have just finished Hi My Sweetheart last night..
or should i say this morning...

very cute lead girl but not so cute lead boy..
last week I was on my butt 24-7 watching Boys over Flowers..

had me crying like an idiot..

At least..I have something to rush from the office to get home..

Eggs-Sunny Side Up

2010-03-17T14:54:00.002+08:00

I think i've been having too many eggs lately.
Eggs-sunny side up downed with one big glass of iced coffee, enough to
satisfy my palate.
I had them for dinner last night and i had them again for breakfast
this morning...yum-yum

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So hub and i were having almost an hour of phone conversation last night..
Hub still concerned that i might regret my decision to quit my job and move to Twu with him.

Well, actually, this will not be my first time quitting job. I've done it..countless times during the span of my marriage life and it all didn't lasts as long as i thought it would be.
I only found the first couple of months enjoyable but when the third month crept in i started to feel bored and useless. I didn't mean to press my luck but i never found it difficult to find one job after quitting another.

My decision is almost certain..final..but as i shouted in FB i need to escape to sanctuary and try to simulate the whole thing in my mind..and replay it over and over and over again..

Having to live hundreds or even thousands of miles away from someone you love is...hurtful, LDM is hard, well nobody says that it's not is it?

Being here is lonely, though fun but lonely and being there is boring..former and latter both are mind-numbing..

Why do the good and the bad have to go in parallel? I am happy and sad at the same time. I wonder is there anybody out there feels the same way that i do..

2010-03-08T14:11:00.002+08:00

sadness, emptiness..
i got home yesterday feeling gloomy
and for the hundredth times i was defeated by
the loneliness and broke down..

come what may
and there would be just me..
there is only.. me
me against all odds..

it's getting really frustrating

i can't fall sick
i have to be strong
i have to be the one..

the hardest part is
my trouble with sleeping
when i can't sleep
where do i run to?
whom do i find comfort with?

the phone obviously is not much of a help..

Trouble Sleeping

2010-03-07T01:02:00.003+08:00

i hate night like this..
where i just can't get to sleep!
Damn..
I have popped 2 paracetamol but
instead of slowly descending into dream land
i am quickly ascending to wake land
damn,damn,damn...
lesson learnt..
2litres of coke and 3 big glasses of caffeine
were so-SO not recommended when
you have trouble sleeping..
even during 5 hours before bed time!
but i wonder how mum did it?
mum always had her coffee just before sleep
but i always find her dozing off the minute
her head finds the pillow..
it's like the caffeine help her fall to sleep
how i wish the caffeine has the same effect on me..
than i wouldn't have to blog at freakin 1.23am on a Sunday
like a mad woman, in the hope
that some how i get tired or bored enough
and my mind start registering SLEEP
as its next course in the next few minutes..

Me Nag, Me Rant

2010-03-04T09:43:00.003+08:00

So i'm free to blog post again..
just today though, with the almost empty office..
i can scratch my ass, pick my nose without having
to worry my Senior (boss? never know how to address him) pop out from
his office and giving me pieces of work to do.

erm...the toner of the photocopier runs out again..
have called the Tech guy to come and replace it..
the boys were actually staying until 4.30am yesterday to finish up
the presentation papers..poor them..lucky me..he!

some guy (randomly speaking, not interested to give name, does it really matter anyway?)from the Aviation Dept. called to ask whether our dept sending any rep to the meeting tomorrow..
Though i've given answer to his question, he still persisted that i call him tomorrow to give a 'definite' answer..**sigh**do i sound stupid?

Later at lunch, i'll be going to CP. Herv said he wanted to go to the tailors..
So while he's busy with his tailoring i think i might just make a tour to Nouville
The thoughts of going to Nouville excites me...yay!
girls+beauty products=never ending story..wow i can shout this at FB..

My stomach is aching and screaming asking it to be filled..
but my mind is stronger than my stomach today so Mind wins!
well at least my hips will be grateful..
here comes another equation..
empty stomach+grateful hips=crappy mood

duh!

so let's see what i ought to do today...work related..
have to finish that and that,
have to order that and that
and i must not forget to text Zul to get the projector ready
for tomorrow's meeting, must not forget..
i meant to text him right away but he's kind of forgetful and
i know that he's very busy taking picture 'over the other side', you know where everybody
is going leaving the office empty....i talk crap again..

o ya...have you ever go to a bakery just to sniff at the wonderful bakery aroma
and while you doing it you just pretend that you're going to buy something but not?
well... that happens to me..or should i rephrase..i like to do that.. a lot! No price for sniffing.

ok now...i need to end this post or i'll just be typing pointlessly endlessly..

of Twilight and Kyle XY

2010-03-03T11:29:00.005+08:00

At long last, i've finally got a grip on Twilight last friday. The book has been out for months since November..

I've finished reading it in a (my) record time of 2 and a half days, exhausted from all the reading i spent half of my Sunday sleeping..

Going to get New Moon and Eclipse later this month..
the irony is..i already bought and finished Breaking Dawn since that's the only available Twilight Saga book last year...

O...I suddenly go gaga over Kyle XY a.k.a Matt Dallas that is.....i think he can also play the character of Edward Cullen..

one word to describe......

edible

I'm OK

2010-02-25T14:41:00.002+08:00

i'm in a good mood today..no numbness, no upsets, no unhappy things..
maybe because i've got to work on a clean table today (i've finally finished up filing away those stacks of paper which has become (almost permanent) residents on my table since like...errr...),
went to Baba&Nyonya for lunch just now with bro and Choy and lunch with them would only mean lots and lots and lots of laughter..then when i got back to the office, a very familiar face came to pass some docs.

But come to think of it...
maybe because i don't have to come home to an empty house tonight where there's nobody but me and Sean. Most nights we would be repeating the same things, me and him on the sofa watching UP/Madagascar II/Ice Age I,II&III/Bolt etc.., me and him eating dinner, me-showering, him-shouting every minute to ask whether i've done showering and so on..by the way, i think in any given time should somebody asked me to write the complete script of the animation/cartoon we watched, i think i might be able to put it down on paper, word by word with maybe only 1 or 2 mistakes...(pathetic)

but most importantly, i think i'm ok today because hub's coming back tomorrow and the family can once again be together again..

2010-02-18T10:56:00.002+08:00

How time flies! This is actually my first post in 2010..ha!
So i'm back to work today after taking a few days off for CNY..
lazy,lazy,lazy.....i am so in lazy mode (mood) today..
Talk lazily, sit lazily, type lazily, browse lazily even eat lazily..
So i am just going to lazily type the last sentence to the post of the day..

Did i stop aging?

2009-12-29T13:26:00.002+08:00

I am pleased...
maybe because of the make-up a.k.a camouflage
people in my new workplace always
thought that i'm in my 20s..

How old are you? people asked..
I'm 33..
You sure don't look like one...they said..
or...What? i thought you're 25 like me...one surprised
haha..
did i really looked younger than my age?..
erm..I feel the same..
Maybe when i'm skinnier..i will feel like one..

small commotion

2009-12-29T09:09:00.003+08:00

So i was late to work....again..
Gosh..punctuality..my No.1 enemy..
hahahha...i mean i was up early...everyday..
but still turned up late to work..
Bad habit i know..

While i was busy maneuvering the car,
i got relentless calls from a number i didn't know..
and i don't pick calls from strangers..
but once i've reached the office, it turned out
that the unknown number was infact N's cell number..
and while she didn't show it i know that she was very furious..haha
our dept was organizing a meeting this morning and
the key to the board room was with me..
and i thought the meeting start much later...
so, long story short and i should've known better now...
that this 'small commotion' will certainly be brought up
during meeting with our CEO..
but guess what...i didn't even bat an eyelid
maybe because unlike anybody else in this office..
i am only deign to work..

Resolution

2009-12-28T16:00:00.003+08:00

Another 4 days to go to yet another new chapter of life..
Should i call it chapter, it doesn't sound apt to me..
coz when you say Chapter of your life..what should be
flashing right out are:-
Chapter 1 - Adoloscent/Teen years
Chapter 2 - Grown up years
Chapter 3 - Single years
Chapter 4- Married years
Chapter 5 - Married with kids years
Chapter 6 - Trouble in the Water years
Chapter 7 - Triumph years(?)
well....something like that...

I haven't been thinking much about resolutions for next year..
i prefer to have hopes or come what may...
but if you dont' set some resolutions..
you might end up living your life without any sort of directions..
and one day when you suddenly realised that some things
could be done...might be achieved, but it was too late..
your hair grew grey, your eyes blurry...and all that was left
were unanswered questions.. what would've, what could've...what if...
and...Regrets...

Better buckle up and start thinking..

Numb

2009-12-28T09:55:00.004+08:00

Day 28th in the month of December 2009.
I'm in the office..(yes, where else would i be?)
and I am Numb..

Hub flew back to T this morning after spending a week at home.
And right now i have to readjust again..
I blogged about how empty i felt in October and i thought
after 3 (or was it 4) months i will get use to the idea of
not having Hub around..but..here i am...blogging about how
Numb i feel right now..

Sometimes..(mostly time like this), i just feel like i'm going to loose it..
All i wanted to do is to go back to my bed and just curl up and
not doing anything for a good few days or weeks...
O gosh...i love the idea of that...Not doing anything..
in other words...just feel Numb..

A or B?

2009-12-01T08:50:00.002+08:00

So here i am..in dilemma again, working in a new organization i am currently reporting to 2 departments...haha..

So yesterday A department head asked me to decide which department that i'm most comfortable with and like the most coz she said she wanted 100% from me. When i first started working, i was actually reporting to A department, but after 2 weeks, some moron thought that my experience can contribute more in B department and so here i am today, spending 50% of my time of the day doing A and the other 50% doing B which is very exhaustive and by the end of the day i was totally drained out.

So now the question will be which department i like the most? erm...

'A' department is less authoritative and more to taking directives but i love working with the people in 'A' department, they are the most friendly and unpretentious.

'B' department is more authoritative and more to give orders, people wise...50-50, but to tell the truth i like the works in 'B' department, open up a lot of doors of knowledge.

So do i choose to work with people i like or with the work i like?

GGGRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Handing Over List

2009-10-26T10:45:00.002+08:00

Gosh...i've got to finish this list today...got to!got to! got to!..i've been procrastinate it since last 2 weeks ago! grr..

This will be my final week working at GCA after spending like almost 8 years here (on&off), next week is going to be another new chapter for me where work is concerned that is.

I was asked to leave a note on what-to-do-when.., it's pretty absurd i reckon coz it's like teaching kids how to poo..

1. What to do when there's no electricity? duh dude...call SESB la...what else! if there's power failure in your own house what are you going to do anyway?!

2. What to do if the gate is not working? haiya..this also ask me to leave note, i'm not handing over my job to some kids ait?!..

3. What to do if pipe or roof is leaking? i asked you, if the pipe in your house leaks, what are you going to do? sit around waiting for some miracles to happen? of course you call plumber right?!!

I told my friends that if craziness gets the better of me, i will also going to leave an extra notes on..

4. What to do when there are too much mangoes growing on the trees? Get a picking-stick and pick all the mangoes down, you can either share it with a friend or just bring home and enjoy it yourself..how's that?!

5. What to do when there are too much red guava growing? answer: See No. 4

6. What to do if you find that there's no water supply? answer: complain to HOTLINE

7. What to do if you are thirsty? Get a glass, go to the kitchen and get water from the water dispenser or you prefer tap water?

8. Instructions to be left on the toilet wall...Don't forget to wipe your ass..

I think i better stop writing now before the list gets filthy...

You know i've got nothing better to do when...

2009-10-23T11:26:00.002+08:00

you see my blog got pimped!

So today...

2009-10-22T13:02:00.003+08:00

I was up at freakin 4A.M!! /blur , i was tossing and turning and no matter what i did i just couldn't get back to dream land...grrr..

So i waited until the sun showed up and at exactly 5.50am, i brushed my teeth and headed off to Tamu Donggongon... /wahaha , went for breakfast a.l.o.n.e then i was at the Tamu at 6.50am! gosh...i was actually planned to spend some time wandering around the Tamu but my intention was cut short when one of the veggie sellers said that her friend just got snatched theft, i thought i heard it wrongly coz there's no way u got snatched so early and at crowded place such as this but it's true. So after i bought what i wanted to buy i left the Tamu as fast as i could coz i couldn't help but feeling there's someone is watching me and just waiting for the right time to snatch my handbag! Well, after all, one can't be too careful ait?!

The Life I Wanted (?)

2009-10-06T14:41:00.003+08:00

Some few years back i always dreamt of

having my own space,

driving on my own to the places i wanted to go.. (without being nagged)

and acquired a job or position that i feel is important.

Guess what?

My wishes have all been fulfilled..

Hub now working in.....coming back only every now and then

Me driving around to my heart's content

and i've also gotten myself a position that at least i feel is important...well, being the CM as the Chairman of the organisation is 'something' i supposed..

So...am i satisfied? Do i leap for joy?

Guess what?

The answer is No....

The loneliness is killing me....

I feel empty..

Dad's Souvenir & Journey to East Coast

2009-09-02T14:19:00.013+08:00

Dad brought these back from his trip to China (or is it HK?) together with a few other girlie stuff, i was in a hurry to snap this and MMS it to my sis i didn't realise i put it on top of the egg tarts boxes, the egg tarts were from Macau.

Hub, me and SF travelled to the East Coast on Merdeka's Eve. We left home as early as 4.30am and stopped over at Perkasa Hotel to 'borrow' their toilets.

SF with his favourite car.

Mount Kinabalu at 6.30am.

Breakfast at Telupid.

Kon Lau Mee with char siew+siu yuk and the other one was with daging payau.

Re-fill at Kinabatangan's pump station.

Almost there.....

After spending 11.5 hours in the car, we reached Tawau!!

SF waiting for his meal.

Tawau Cinema.

Inside Sabindo plaza, the clothes were quite cheap but didn't have time to stroll around.Next time...

Inside one of Tawau's store..

The famous Pasar Tawau..

Me and SF fly home to KK with a heavy heart,
1st night sleeping with half the bed empty was really hard,
i thought i'm not the Emo type but boy i was so wrong.

Hub called and said perhaps i should reconsider of moving to Tawau with him. But that will be in another chapter as for now..i might be..might..only time will tell..

Wow...

2009-08-11T09:49:00.004+08:00

Been very busy....(and who's not?) have to bang my head against the wall
a few times before i can think again..

The big B was not in, so took this chance to blog in awe of how i can blog live now...wow!!*sakai*hahahha...

I was watching French Food at home on AFC last night and for the first time introduced to the word 'Butter sauce'..and i mean...eww...one whole block of butter for sauce! So i decided to try out my new hp and..watdaya know...i can blog LIVE...hehhe...only problem now is how to *sort of * integrate this blog to the other blog...**sigh**have to learn more of this....later

So yesterday, me and the others took a detour downtown during lunch..and me as usual was so hook up on these..

and these...

and my heart was singing with these..

mean time...here's presenting the newest of SF..

with his latest obssesion...Pringles

and his favourite pass time...pee pee..

It's The Hardest Things..

2009-08-03T16:34:00.002+08:00

Just because I don't have anything to say,

It doesn't mean that I am heartless.

Just because I do have something to say,

It doesn't mean that I am rude.

Just because I voice out,

It doesn't mean that I am blaming.

It's so hard sometimes...

You thought you know your better half,

But then again..

Maybe Now They Will Leave Him Alone

2009-07-09T15:55:00.003+08:00

This was the speech given by Marlon Jackson at MJ's Memorial. I have watched one too many times of the memorial, reruns after reruns and my heart ached and my eyes teared every time i watched it. Rest in peace...King of Pop, God Bless.

"I'm lost for words, I was his voice, his backbone. I had his back, so does the family. We thank you very much," he said.

Marlon Jackson then took the mike for an emotional tribute in which he remembered their time as children.

"I hurt. I stand here trying to find words of comfort and solace… trying to understand why the lord has taken our brother to return home from such a short visit here on earth. When you left us, a part of me went with you and a part of you will live forever within me, but also… within all of us," he said.

"Michael, I will treasure the good times, the fun we had, singing, dancing, laughing. I can remember we would come home from school and grab a bite to eat and we would try to watch 'The Three Stooges', and mother would come in and say it was time to go to the recording studio."

Marlon also addressed Jackson’s life inside a media bubble from a young age.

“I also remember a time Michael, when I went into the record store and there was this man purchasing a lot of CDs. He was an old gentleman, short afro, buck-crooked teeth and his clothes were rumpled. I walked up behind him and said ‘Michael, what are you doing in this store?’ and he turned to me and said ‘Marlon, how did you know it was me?’ I told him ’You’re my brother, regardless of your make up. I know your walk, I know your body language, and the shoes did not help. Michael wore the same shoes wherever we went, but I guess that was his way of trying to experience what we take for granted.

"We would never ever understand what he endured. Not being able to walk across the street without a crowd gathering around him. Being judged, ridiculed, how much pain can one take? Maybe now Michael they will leave you alone,” he said, as his sister Janet nodded in agreement.

H e finished by saying: "Michael I love you, I will miss when we said our goodbyes. I would hug you and say I love you and your response was ‘I love you more’.

"You have finished your work here on earth and the lord has called you to come home to him… I have one request Michael, I would like for you to give our brother, my twin brother, Brandon, a hug from me. I love you Michael, and I’ll miss you.”

of Buah Delima and some other things

2009-06-18T13:57:00.003+08:00

While making my milo this morning, heard text message coming in..it was mum, and mum said something good coming :-)

*****

Manage to get some works done after i put a DND sign on my pinknote

*****

Decided to google on Buah Delima after a friend asked what tree it was outside the office near the fish pond

Buah Delima is very nutritious, here's just a few of it (it's in malay however):-
•Keputihan - 30g kulit delima kering, direbus dengan satu liter air. Masakkan sehingga airnya tinggal separuh. Minum ramuan ini dua kali sehari
•Gangguan pencernaan - 50g daun delima segar dimasak dengan air. Minum sewaktu suam.
•Perut Kembung - Lima helai daun delima kering direndam satu gelas air panas. Minum setelah agak sejuk, minum tiga kali sehari.
•Menurunkan berat badan - Dua genggam daun delima muda diramas-ramas dengan air masak, dicampurkan sedikit garam. Dapatkan perahan pati, minum dua kali sehari.

Decided to try the one with the slimming down effect..since i've got the whole tree to myself *evil smile*

******
R came to me bringing 2 cans of coke, he said 3pm we all share...:-)

******

Saw Kuih Koci recipe and decided to have Kuih Koci for lunch.

Since i only have had a glass of milo this morning, i ended up eating a whole plate of nasi campur + kuih koci+ curry puff+ kuih pulut..:-(

******
Company email down since yesterday and i have one very important mail to send to..

******
Internet at office is racing against snail.

Tulan Moment

2009-06-09T13:16:00.003+08:00

Dug this up from my supposedly blog pics archive.
My niece, yours truly and lil sis..
My very first pic without any makeup posted up..(i am that vain)
but i posted anyway...sis, i posted this up for u since u asked for update,
i force already tired fingers to type up something so u better give me one good present in Aug!

*****on another note*****
It's getting harder and harder to drag myself out of bed every day
just to get to work.
I'm already feeling tired even before physically be in the office.

Am considering resigning coz i really can't handle office shit any more!
Frequent power cut also blame me..i didn't organise staff to do work, how the heck i know when SESB going to do power cuts! damn...
Autodesk surprised checking..also blame me..
Asking stupid questions...why they come and check, why do you let them in the office..damn..you think autodesk come and check because I asked them to come and check a?! and do i just people standing at the door pretending not to see them..
Gosh....really, 6 years here and my first time crying infront of that man...
how can everything and anything has to be my fault...
Just because your life sucks dont make my life sucks either..
Just because you have a fail marriage don't blame others instead ask yourself why your wife ask for separation..think la...
if before you said you only have one failure in life, well congratulations!!now you have 2!!

Back then.

2009-06-05T15:56:00.003+08:00

I read back my previous posts and quite please..
read here..'quite please' with my writings (in english) that is..
I don't blog as much nowadays,
coz not just my english getting worse,
my creativity juice all drained by the bos.
So, what's left is just that stinky english with
zero creativity..

I wanted to blog again,
but everytime i wanted to do that...
my brain failed on me..
I wonder why i have this new problems..
It's like a 1% dementia,
forgetting things, i read something, i turn my back,
then i forgot about it.

It's embarrassing,
just like this morning when a regular client
came to our office, i looked at her like an idiot,
pretty damn sure who she is but i just can't remember her name!
I was so embarrassed to ask her again (coz i did ask her name when
she came by last week),
so when i refer her to bos (she's not there of-course!), i just said
bos, u know that lady that comes here often...gosh...
Why like this?!
Symptom of growing old?! I am not that old really..

and what'z up with my english?
i read a lot but some how,all the reading automatically being
archived in my brain, and when it's archived
it's hard finding it back..

I think i need to take more supplements..maybe ginkgo biloba..or chicken brands..
i shall try that and fingers cross, i'll blog about it..

Pix-pix

2009-05-29T16:04:00.006+08:00

Karaoke at KK Box...

Lil Sis on the way to the airport....

Riddle

2009-05-07T17:08:00.003+08:00

What do you call when your bos asked you to do something which is out

from your scope of work and for which you gain nothing in terms of money?

Anyone?

The word is.........Help...

Can you help to do this?

Can you help to do that?

And out of being thoughtful (read silly), we agreed 'to help'.

2009-05-07T15:35:00.001+08:00

this is pretty easy...

i only have to contemplate

either to finish up the book

to finish up King of Snooker

easy peasy..

Office Backyard

2009-05-07T15:30:00.004+08:00

Mix Emotions

2009-05-05T16:41:00.003+08:00

I have accidently commited to a biggest secret ever!
I am now feeling mix emotions towards the man whom i hated
the most last week. The man who scolded me without any good reasons at all!
But now, i dont know how or what to feel,
I've got this 'thing'in my heart for which i cannot explain
I hate him at the same time understood why he did what he did,
I am sad for him but at the same time still holding grudges..

facebook

2009-04-17T13:22:00.002+08:00

it's nice to get in-touch with friends via facebook,
but one question that i am so tired to answer about is..

"Di mana kau kerja sekarang?"

I mean really, is this the only question that you can ask,
come on la...

It was like when you're being single and you go to some party,
and the eldest start asking you..

"Bila kau mau kawin?"

or when you have 3 kids and you go to some full moon party,
and they'll ask..

"Bah, bila lagi mau tambah?"

Hello, even if i have 10, i think i'm still getting that question thrown at me anyway. -_____-

Overhaul

2009-04-09T15:57:00.003+08:00

Can't wait tomorrow where i can just drop everything off and..

relaxxx....

Pill Free Day 4

2009-03-30T11:52:00.002+08:00

I am more 'relax', my mind more at ease,
It's my day 4 of pill free days...
Hub asked me not to continue the Pill
coz reason #1, I was ballooning and
#2, I was becoming "Mrs. Hell"..lol..
even with Mercilon, the so-called, low oestrogen pills,
i'm still getting the side effects,
i call it the 'uncontrollable anger and hunger'

On another note...

Ever since i know this place that sells
the cheapest chicken wings, i think RM18.60 per pack
and it's near my house, we've been having wings
none stopped!hahah..was thinking to get another pack
later this evening...make curry chicken wings maybe..
are there any recipes for wings other than
nam yue and KFC? hmm...

American Idol

2009-03-27T08:46:00.003+08:00

If i were to vote for American Idol

I will surely vote for.....

A.D.A.M.L.A.M.B.E.R.T

shush the rumours that he's gay, he rocks!

Britney Depression

2009-03-23T14:37:00.003+08:00

Here's one word that pops out in my vocabulary every single day,
B.O.R.E.D

*****

Now that school holiday was over, i am back to my boring routine again..
Monday to Friday..
@Home
Wake up -> Rush to Work-> Go Back Home-> Playtime with SF -> Sleep
Hub? our work schedule has totally clashed! When i'm working he's sleeping,
When i'm sleeping, he'll be working..
in d Office..
Work->Work->Work-> No play..
ever since my 'click friends' have resigned,
office has become a dead zone...i really mean it! 'DEAD ZONE'
We come, work our *tut*tut* off, report this, report that, meeting that,
meeting this, get screwed...and guess what?! lunch time was ALSO spent in the office...what dayya think of that!!
thanks to the Dead Zone, my life now has officially become 'boringest' if there such a word!

I am seriously in danger of developing a 'Britney depression', please...something must be done..but what?! Shave my head? Hell No! Stuff myself with 'sin'food, hmm..maybe, hence the 'TOO FAT' result...

*****

I am restructuring my activity/playtime with SF, tonight shall be the 'cut and paste' activity, hell with the mess, we'll be having a good time!

To Ham or not To Ham

2009-03-05T12:19:00.002+08:00

I was thinking to get my girls a hamster, either one each or share shall be considered later. But hub disagreed coz he said hamsters smell. Is it? I don't know coz when i was small i had not had the pleasure to rear anything! I think Hub just lazy to 'clean up should anything goes dirty'..haha..I think i'll just go ahead and get it coz i wanted my kids to have memory of rearing real things other than virtual things.

When I Was 14

2009-02-24T15:45:00.002+08:00

I lost all of my teenager's memories a.k.a stuff to Greg Storm in 1996 when i was still living at TA water village. But, thanks to FB i get to see my 1992 class pic again. I only can remember 11 by first name but also thanks to FB, i get to 'remember' 23 of them by full name. The rest well..shame on me..

When Will I Be Kurus

2009-02-23T12:10:00.002+08:00

(to sing along with When Will I Be Famous tune)

When will I
will I be kurus?

I can't answer
I can't answer that.

When will I see myself thin in the picture?

I can't answer
I can't answer that.

When will I
will I be kurus? I keep asking myself that.

I'm a slave to food and my life is full of 'hunger'
It's the way i am!
I've suffered for my deep loving for food

I know i should go far!
But i keep asking the question
oh
i'm not supposed to mention.

When will I
will I be kurus? . . .
Oh
I can't tell you when i'll see myself wear an 'M' or 'S'

When will I
will I be kurus? I keep asking myself

I can't wait! To be kurus...

Kids & Homeworks

2009-02-09T17:52:00.002+08:00

Why do kids love to lie about their homeworks? Faye, for a thousand times lied again..Gosh! I just don't know what to do with her anymore! You see my daughters are staying with my mum during school days coz my mum is staying in the teacher's quarters same school with my daughters so i save hassle of going up very early to get them ready for school every morning, but of-course on the other hand.....poor mum..., So, hub & i are only going to pick up the girls on friday night or saturday morning and they will bring back their weekend homeworks to do at home. But..., Faye, my eldest, always says that she's done her homework, asked her again...Yes, I've done my homework at class, or sometimes she'll answer...O..this week no homework, in my heart i say,Wah, so good a...the famous for giving out the most homework to student school, apparently give no homework to Year 5 student....hmmm...'of course' in my heart also...sigh, what a relieve....Yeah, mum, what a relieve coz your daughter lied again!! The best part is, she will only tell that she has mountains of homeworks to do at 10pm Sunday night, you tell me la, what to do with this girl..I was fuming, nope not fuming, burning...She did this every week, I've spanked her, 'wash her ears' but still to no avail....tell me what to do then...

Wake Up Call

2009-02-09T13:47:00.001+08:00

Remember my new toy? I have returned it to M coz i just hate that thing!! It takes me ages just to answer one freakin' sms and i can't received one damn MMS! Actually when i first bought it, the first question i asked M was, can i receive MMS and when he replied can then only i bought. But manatau, the guy was bluffing. Gosh! Big sis was angry when she learned about it coz she said how can colleague tipu colleague well i said he deserved it coz he's no longer a colleague coz he was retrenched last month. That's what i said karma.

*****

We had another staff briefing this morning which as expected talked about yet another 'work-hard-for-me-so-that-i-can-spend-more-and-pay-your-salary-late' meeting...gosh, now every time i heard the words, economy or credit crunch i want to puke...literally..

*****

After months of abandoning my exercise and diet, i have balooned to a shocking *3kg, my God! it's so funny actually, last saturday we went to watch Inkheart and as we lingered around waiting for the time slot, we (as in me,pappy and the 3 lil monkeys) saw the 'interesting'weighing machine and decided to step on it. The machine not only weigh but also measure your height, give some (inaccurate which we ignored) prophecies with a 4-D lucky number. But what was really funny was the print out (a ticket like printout) will also tell whether you are thin or whether you have ideal weight. My 2 daughters stepped on it and the print out said that they are too thin coz their ideal weight is supposed to be 50+kg but Faye only weigh up to 30kg and Eve at 24kg. Pappy is overweight and guess what's mine?! The freakin weighing machine tell me that.... i am too fat or rather ....'You Are Too Fat'...i laugh first then cry later....grr....

Hello!Hello!!Wake Up!!Time to exercise!!Time to diet!!Hello!!

In The Jungle

2009-01-09T12:27:00.001+08:00

There are not much banana trees to be harvested.
George & Jane of the Jungle were out
and so all the monkeys are happily swinging
from branches to branches and from trees to trees.
Occasionally looking for bananas to eat
some primates are picking fleas off each other.
While some are so engrossed with lelong.com and rmvb.

SHE's Out With The Kids

2008-12-29T12:35:00.006+08:00

After much persuading, hub agreed to become the kind Samaritan.

Meanwhile,

Pirate,surrounded by invisible dark clouds, was about to throw tantrum.

Catching Bedtime Stories

This Is What SHE called ' D Log Style.

New Addition To The Clan..

2008-12-29T12:29:00.003+08:00

Welcoming Mohd. Aaron Damian to the World,

Born 22th December 2008

Christmas

2008-12-25T10:32:00.004+08:00

A lot of SHE friends or those who knows SHE
doesn't know that SHE's not celebrating Christmas.
As SHE's typing this away, in a distant, SHE
can hear SHE phone is beeping, texts from
friends wishing SHE would have a great time today has flooded in.
SHE can't even wish 'Merry Christmas' to those who wishes SHE.
And instead SHE would normally reply 'Same To You' which sometimes
getting odd responses from people...well, who wouldn't right?
SHE has to admit that it sounds rude.
"Merry Christimas SHE", says one.
"Same to you", says SHE.
But sometimes SHE couldn't help but wishing Merry Christmas too
especially to SHE friends.

When SHE told Y about this yesterday, Y was surprised
coz she never heard of a Christian who doesn't celebrate Christmas.
SHE said SHE doesn't want to talk or explain about this
cos SHE's not in the mood....to talk....yesterday in SHE's office
all SHE's doing was watching Gossip Girl and Sin Chan..and today there's
no exception, as SHE friends is thinking that SHE's in some Christimas Parties,
SHE's actually on her 3rd DVD.
Perhaps SHE should consider taking a long leave whenever comes Christmas
in a bid to avoid Christmas wishes...

Pirate Pics

2008-12-25T09:17:00.003+08:00

Pirate just love body lotion,

this is what happened when i let him used up the whole bottle!

My New Toy!

2008-12-17T14:33:00.003+08:00

Ladies & Gents,

I give you CECT-599..

my blog is quite dull right now with pictures taken from web

the reason being my previous camera phone damaged and i

lazy to repair...but now...fret no more...CECT-599 to the rescue..;)

Nightmares

2008-12-04T03:30:00.002+08:00

I just had one of the worst nightmares and I have forced myself awake from it ..
Have tried to get back to sleep but I just couldn't
I am so sleepy right at this moment but i am too scared that i will get back to that nightmare that i had...
This (the nightmare) was a siren call from Lord Jesus i reckoned,
I am literally crying now..I can't even recall the last time i've stepped into a church let alone pray. I'm sorry Lord, so sorry.
Money can't buy you a good night sleep but the Lord Jesus can give you that for free..

Will We Be Able To

2008-11-25T16:41:00.003+08:00

This is it.

The reconstruction of Rome.

By God will in another 30 days or so

our life will have a 360 degrees turnaround.

I am currently preparing myself to it

Anxious, nervous, excited....hopeful

Only time will tell.

Today...

2008-11-19T17:18:00.004+08:00

after days of digging up old files..
I'm beginning to feel like i'm a mobile filing museum.

Beer

2008-11-18T16:25:00.002+08:00

I wonder why some people just love to drink beer.

I mean..the taste is awful and it makes your tummy bloat

but still people love to down it..bottle after bottle

which in the list, include myself (;p)

I mirror myself on the way to the office yesterday

and forgetting the fact that i just had one too much beer

last sunday and on last few sundays ago..

i was wondering why there're blemishes on my face..

Then it hit me,,gosh...it's the BEER!

I like drinking beer but it's the aftermath that i can't stand..

and by saying that i don't mean the hangover..

Why So Sensitive?

2008-11-14T13:56:00.002+08:00

Thank God for this blog,
i'm able to let loose a bit..

It's hard to work with someone
who mix personal with work..
but as i'm typing this away..
I realised that i too used to be that way..
So damn sensitive..

Yes, i am your friend.
Yes, i am nice.
But when i am not,
it doesn't mean that i did
what i did in purpose
I did what i did
to suit my office 'character'
I speak the way i am in the office
because my position requires me to

It's not fair to be labelled
coz whenever you're not around
i was bombarded by the bos asking where
you were and what you're doing there..
as i say, it's my job to be a busy body..
in reality, i dont give a damn
even if you dissapear one year from the office..

How can you also not realised that
we are Not, although same office,
in the same company..
How can you forget,
what's transpired from the meeting.

Well, honey...
i am too old for this kind of game..
if you are the Expert
i am the Zen of this..

I want to cry..

2008-11-07T18:08:00.000+08:00

on the verge of nervous breakdown..

Cute!!!

2008-11-06T08:10:00.001+08:00

Movie Junkie

2008-10-31T16:19:00.003+08:00

I am so sleepy..
Have been sleep deprived for 3 days straight!
Went to bed at 3am in the morning and
woke up at 6am...Ha! only 3 hours of sleep..
hence the day light wooziness.

So what does a movie junkie do to award thyself?
Spend excessively on dvd of-course!
Let's see, latest addition to my dvd family are these babies..

- Hancock

-Camprock

and..... Sex & The City Season 1 to Season 6...

i wonder if my 48 hours weekend enough to finish them all

..hmm....maybe not..

Love Letter #3 Beethoven

2008-10-19T22:08:00.005+08:00

Good morning, on July 7

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you,
my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully,
then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us
I can live only wholly with you or not at all
Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you
until I can fly to your arms
and say that I am really at home with you,
and can send my soul enwrapped in you
into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so
You will be the more contained
since you know my fidelity to you.
No one else can ever possess my heart
never - never -
Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves.
And yet my life in V is now a wretched life
Your love makes me at once the happiest
and the unhappiest of men
At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection?
My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day
therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once
Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday -
what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell.
Oh continue to love me
never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

#############

btw, Sex & The City is so syok!

This Is Me (ain't a song title) Whining Again

2008-10-18T21:31:00.004+08:00

I am hesitate to write this 'short' post
coz i know some people just resent a very short post..
but then again..this is M.Y blog,
so even if i want to post one WORD
then...so what

well, actually, when i first
signed in to blogger all i had in mind
was the word Tired..and so that's
what i intended to type or rather to post..

Today, i am...tired,tired,tired..
and that's it.

But eventually, the mood start
to build and so here i am typing
my thoughts away...
ha,ha..congrats lildots..
you managed to post up something..

Work has been crazy,
bos even predicted that next month
will be busier..
and to top it all..we also have to attend
some 'refreshing' sessions..
coz according to Mr.Bos,
it's better to stop for a while
to 'think' rather than just 'do'
even if it means that our work
will be delay..

And that's what we've been doing
since last month (or is it the previous month?)
DO,DO,DO,DO,DO..
WORK,WORK,WORK,WORK..

I come to the office every day
thinking that i was the only one
whose loosing sleep,
turn out that almost every body
didn't have a good night sleep either..

E came in saying that he's only sleep
for a few hours to finish off his design
L & Y came in saying she climbed to bed
at 1 in the morning to finish off
her cashflow
and me...let's just say
i'm doing work even in my sleep..
and that a very bad sign..

that's a sign that we are all...slowly..
transforming to...

COW

2008-09-11T20:47:00.002+08:00

I don't have any pictures to be uploaded..,
hmm...scratch that..i have some..
but...as usual, the lazy me said
wait for the next post, then upload.
**sigh**
At home now, as hub is taking the
shower, i quickly take over his lappy
to give a quickie update as i no longer
can update in the office..
not that internet was disconnected or
i was barred from surfing but the
mountains of works and endless meetings/trainings
have drifted me away from blogging.

k...that's it...
hub back to his trading..
n i shall sign off now..
you guys take care..

I Need MY Time...

2008-08-22T17:28:00.004+08:00

I'm back to the office today after attending a

2-day seminar on Good Management System at

Tang Dynasty. The seminar was fully sponsored

by Malaysia Produtivity Corporation after they

received some funds from EPU to conduct training

for SMEs, MPC said there will be more 'free' seminars

to come after Raya break. Hmm....can't wait.

Opportunities to level up yourself..,interesting.

My story today is ofcourse got nothing to do with

what i've gained throughout the training but..

as usual...of office rants..

What do you expect to see on your table

the very morning you arrived at your office?

answer....Mountain of works of course..

some urgent, some can be done in the next week.

So, i'm actually racing against time to finish it all

before being pestered by bos on Monday.

I've planned and prioritised which to finish first,

but...**very deep sigh**..as the watch on my wrist indicated

that it's time to go back..5.30pm..and guess what?!

I didn't even managed to finish even the simplest task!!!

Why? you may ask...because, i am too busy...

listening to people grievances/stories,etc,etc...

My colleagues dropping by my table..

one after the other....Aaaarrgghhhh!!!

I told Yat that maybe i should just put

sign 'NOT INTERESTED' or 'BUSY, PLS COME BACK'

on my forehead.

I did give gestures that 'i'm kinda busy' by

typing on the keyboard with top speed as they talk

but in the end, i was the one who got defeated.

Having to stop tapping the keyboard, put it slightly

further away and giving 'undivided' attention to the

words coming out from their mouths. Even while

typing this post i have to stop mid way to listen

to MA and if not for T who suddenly popped up

to ask me something, i bet MA would've been

continue to yak until God knows when.....

Yat said that i should just ignore them and continue

doing my work but i just don't have the heart......*sigh*

guess i am the ultimate unofficial Aunt Agony.

If someday, one of you, my dear fellow collegues, do

come across this post...please.., i mean 'no harm'

i just need my time.....

2008-08-06T14:55:00.002+08:00

Just a quickie on Borneo Art Gallery which
going to be opened on Friday 8.8.08.

2008-08-05T14:48:00.003+08:00

I know i didn't do much justice to this blog,
updating quite rarely with not much to rant about..
It's just that i found it quite difficult to express
my thoughts when i'm not in the 'creative' mode
Just like...now..where my thoughts are only
suitable in creating responses to a pile of letters on my desk..
Eyes very sleepy, poor concentration..
Trying hard to keep my mind off
venturing into the kitchen and make myself
a nice warm cup of coffee.

Very Suggestive

2008-07-15T16:41:00.002+08:00

Conversation taken place during our half-yearly evaluation last two weeks ago

Boss: Is there any suggestion to improve the company?

Me: For architectural firm no but to promote the lodge yes.

I would like to suggest for the company to sponsor Kenny Sia's stay coz from

what i know he's going to join for the Borneo Marathon in October. (Then

i continued telling boss who Kenny Sia is)

Boss: That's a very good idea, pinknote (something like Skype) to me all the details (But face show no emotion...hahaha)

It's been 14 days since i pinknote to him all details about Kenny Sia and the Marathon and so i thought he's forgotten all about it or thought that's just some kiddy ideas..

Manatau, all of a sudden, he buzzed me four minutes ago asking me on how to get in contact with Kenny! and asked who else is joining the run! OMG,OMG,how la this.......

Bitchy

2008-07-14T17:03:00.003+08:00

I am not bad-mouthing anybody. I only speak of the truth.
I've been in silence for so long. I have my own opinion of
people and from what i observed he is really a...
two faced S.O.B. I think the boss should
really know that the guy really has this weird attitude.
Calling everybody around him stupid. I am so want to tell him
that he should really stop bitching around and stop calling
people names but the problem is this guy is so damn sensitive!
Aaargh! I thought educated people like him (Ozie grad somemore)
should be more forward thinking but no he is not.
Gee...My condolence to the girl friend (if he got one that is).

Borneo Art Gallery

2008-07-11T14:52:00.003+08:00

Some of the paintings that's going to be up on sale.

2008-07-11T09:24:00.002+08:00

When an ugly controlling spirit gets ahold of someone,

not only does their personality change for the worse,

but they also ruin all the good they have created around them.

Sports Day

2008-06-27T15:56:00.009+08:00

CHL was having it's annual Sports Day last sunday.
#1 was joining the Cheerleading and #2 had been
selected in the 4x100meter run, C category.

Aaaa.. this brings back memories of my secondary
school sports day, red team was known as 'JET',
yellow team was 'COMET', blue team was 'FOKKER'
and my team was green 'BOEING'.

I got lazy to enhance some of the pictures hence some pics
looked like it's going to rain..

Hub and i had actually registered for the 4x80meter run
but my condition didn't allow me to join anything
that day rather than resting my bump on the pavilion
*sigh*

My #1 told me the day before that she had been
selected in the 4x200meter but the teacher dropped
her out the last minute as she missed practise
last Wednesday due to her fever.

Here's #2 whose team won 2nd place.

In the Next 3 Weeks...

2008-06-26T15:22:00.004+08:00

we'll be having our half-yearly Evaluation (i scheduled on 1st July)

which after that i will have to analyse the result and suggest

whatever necessary to whomever is in authority..

for my part, i'm having this crazy idea to suggest besides

forcing boss to give increment..LoL..

then the next day i'll be having a meeting, so glad that it's not

the 'chinamen meeting'..

Chinamen Meeting is a meeting i termed when everybody in the meeting

is conversing in Hakka+Mandarin and i'm there to take the minutes

in English...*sigh*

then...i will have to give tutorial on Microsoft Outlook,

a programme which i have to self-teach as i don't quite familiar myself,

what 'fun'...

then...i will have to draft out a proposal on office storage...

hmm..let's see..

Ladies and Gentlemen,

i present to you...

How and What to do with your dump

Gosh...i will have to chant this mantra every morning and before i go to sleep...

I love my job, i love my job, i love my job.....

o...almost forgot the dateline...18th July (15 working days to go..)

Untold Stories

2008-06-23T08:52:00.003+08:00

I've created another blog as i found that i can't (although i wanted to) express
what i truly feel like...of my life, of my surroundings, of...my feelings..

This space shall remained and updated as my happy blog...

I'll be updating soon on my daughters' School's Sport Day and of course.
the never ending office politics....until then..
Have a very Happy Monday..

2008-06-12T16:17:00.002+08:00

>>>LoL<<<
>>>LoL<<<

Has bos been reading my blog?..nah..impossible, cannot be..
he's so buzy running around...how can?
I think it's just a coincidence...

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W has been busy lately, going in and out of office,
the lodge renovation has been completed...
and now she's busy again...
my jaw almost dropped when she told me that
bos wanted to open art gallery..
Kxx Art Gallery..opening soon in Asia City Complex

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Gosh i am so greedy..or is it the drumming tummy talking?
I was perusing Terri's, Appon's, Hungry Hamster's and
the drool's team food blogs
and i wanted to cook everything...
when i read Terri's blog on cassava straight away
i'm planning on getting some cassavas
at mum's place, then i'm also planning to make Appon's pizza for dinner..
or..should i cook the Ham Choi with Sardine
as in the drool's team blog....gosh...
hopefully i didn't end up cooking.......in my dream

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Oh ya!! I passed my driving test!!! Yay!! I'm now declaring that taking JPJ test was the most nerve wrecking experience i ever had! Ever!!! My heart was pounding so hard especially on the first test...THE HILL..thank God i've made it through!
Aud was also taking JPJ test last Monday (same day as me but she's in Sandakan)
and she also said the same thing...nervous gila...hahahahha...but syok! provided of-coz if you passed..

Bali Paintings

2008-06-05T12:29:00.009+08:00

I call this Bali Girls..

Bos: Which one do you prefer to see everyday?
(My table is facing this painting)
Me: This one la..very colourful..(LoL)

Bali Girls CLOSE-UP

When i looked very careful, i noticed that the Bali
girls projected here were not very cheerful..
in fact, they looked rather sad...hmm?

This i call the FACE...

these faces were also looking sad...what's the artist
sad about i wonder..

One of my office mate said that this painting projected
the tsunami that hit Indonesia some time ago..
hmmm...

This is a long painting..and as my pathetic camera phone
cannot take all in one click, i have to divide into..
Top

Middle

Lower

I reckoned that this long painting is actually
a 'sampan' view from top ..

Undescribable paintings..

This painting is actually 3-D....everything 'timbul'

Some more undescribable paintings..

These paintings are located at My Office Art Gallery, admission by invitations only ;P

2008-06-03T16:30:00.002+08:00

It's 4.30pm. I asked hub to fetch me at 4.40pm as the office is rather boring today.

Ly has gone back since 4pm.

It's pouring outside and i hope rain will subside by the time i step out of this office.

It's been 4 days since my last jogging trip.

I'm not feeling well today, been having slight fever since last night. Am so dead bored and not in the mood today and i reckoned everybody in the office is feeling the same too...gee..Tuesday's Blues..

2008-06-02T11:14:00.003+08:00

My fingers seem heavy, typed and erased, typed and erased, this will take me forever..

Rome wasn't built in a day
but we have built it eventually
only to have it crashed to the ground..
now, we are back to ground zero,
surely we are tired but we vowed not to give up
one step at a time..
there's no time for frustrations and anger...
Who should i shout at anyway?
and if i can (which i choose not to), who should i return the 'favour' to?

Why jealous at others?
Work hard yourself!
We didn't go to bed at night and found that
Rome has magically completed the very next morning
We worked our ass off! Very hard! A lot of sacrifices in-between!
We were given equal chance in this life!
A pair of hands, a pair of legs..
You have even messed up with my faith! Our faith!
I'm praying so hard
but the guilt of having people like you punished has come the better of me..
how can i say 'please forgive me God like i forgive the others'
when in truth i cannot forgive people like you!

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On a different and lighter note,

Ly and i have made up, turned out that Ed was the real culprit..
but thanks to him i am now 2kg lighter and fitter..LoL
hub still won't let me drive eventhough he'll be outstation again tomorrow,
his reason? that i have yet to get my license Gosh!..
so.., hopefully Pa can chauffeur me around for 3 days..
i must aim to get my license out middle of this month...
Must!

2008-05-12T10:47:00.002+08:00

I am Scared
Am i doing the right thing?
How will i face God after this?
I know if i consult somebody,
they will say, wait for the Lord, He will deliver you.
But...no longer can i wait...
I am not committing any sins..not like 'those' people..
I am just getting cured....is that a sin?? No....
I told hub that i am actually having wars
between following my heart and my head

God, please forgive me for i am only human.
No longer can i bear these....
Been through this long enough...
I am crying out tears than no one can see..

Yesterday and Today

2008-05-09T16:00:00.004+08:00

Day before yesterday,
mom told me that bro came home sobbing,
his FIL has just passed away....
how sad..
Ah Ling,my SIL, is now 7 months pregnant,
maybe it's fated for her to stay longer in KL,
it's actually unplanned,

she found out that she's 4 months pregnant during CNY
at her parents' house in Ipoh and decided to stay to have the baby there..,
she wouldn't have the chance to be beside him..during those last moment..
they said the father suddenly cannot breathe, collapsed...and that was it...
how weird sickness these days.....not to mention freak car accidents...
perhaps i wouldn't have a chance to meet bro very soon,

as i think he'll be there to continue
the 'legacy'...

but..., the story didn't end here...
mum, after getting the sad news from bro, called lil sis asking her to spread the news to us,
lil sis didn't have sufficient credit and went down from her office to go to a nearby hp shop to reload, and guess what?! her handphone (Nokia N73) was snatched!!!!
and she came home...sobbing....oh my, oh my, i was sad to see mummy's red eyes as she's telling me this....on top of that, mum told me

that the UMS student that was kidnapped and raped had died......
i came home that night feeling like there's something to led out...i told hub that i feel like crying but then no tears dropping from my eyes...***heavy sigh***

Yesterday,
to be nice, i was hurt (or am i just a sensitive freak?) i don't know..
i was chatting with one collQ asking him about certain things...
he confirmed that the things were just rumours and asked who spread it around,
i told him that 'the staff' asked me so i asked him just to get confirmation and satisfy my curiousity..then he said must be 'who&who' who have said it so coz she's capable of creating and spreading rumours..not to mention a back-stabber(angel infront, evil at the back) he also said that behind my back she called me GIANT, i was stunt but still i didn't tell him who's the real culprit....i don't understand this, how could somebody that i close to said something like that......somebody that claimed to be your 'kinda-good-friend'..but then she's bitching you behind your back..i admit tho that i am big but she's big for her frame as well....i read some where that in order to hide one's own flaws they tend to talk bad behind people's back and that person is none other than his/her best friend....i told the collQ it's good to know that as that will be my motivation to get slim.....thank you very much Ly.....now i know what you're made of!
starting today i am back to my exercise regime again..after getting lazy for 4-months....
although i am hurt but atleast now i am determine as ever...been wanting to drop this x-tra kilos since Sean was born one and a half years ago ...

Today,
Had my 2nd 2-hour driving practical, getting better and better behind the wheel, yups..been driving from Sembulan-Menggatal-Penampang..yay! So excited! Might consider to go for palm reading at Sinsuran..Chickyegg, if you're reading this, i know the exact location already..scared to go as i'm afraid that it'll be a conflict to my religious but i think that's just palm-reading, it's just like reading horoscope everyday but this one is being streched further (ya, good self-comfort)...
wow..this is my longest post ever...

IRONMAN

2008-05-06T09:45:00.003+08:00

Have you all watched this?..This is another not-to-be-missed movie coz it's so...WOW!!

Tho you can get pirated dvd or download it but it was double the excitement when you watch it on the big screen...yeah!! let me say it again....WOW!! When we exchanged views back in the office the other day, my colleague said that he never thought that girls like this kind of movie too...wei..Ah Piu..you thought us girls are not up to technology a?

Thien Thien Restaurant

2008-04-30T15:31:00.005+08:00

We were having dinner at Thien Thien Restaurant last night. I've stupidly over estimated our hunger level and ordered 5 dishes (2 of the same) for just hub and i. Well, i was actually thinking that since i didn't have lunch, i could eat 'an elephant'. *sigh* what a waste! (note to self)..

I've ordered these..

Fried Garoupa with Thai Sauce (RM22.00)

Fried prawns (RM9.50), this dish i've ordered 2!

Seafood with beancurd (RM9.80)

Chicken in seafood sauce (RM11.00)

Bill... plus rice and drinks

And Then There Was Me And....

2008-04-24T10:52:00.002+08:00

'the disaster'....i've changed the nickname of my baby son from 'the pirate' to the big D for Disaster for he came, he saw, he took and he threw....walking around the house now is like walking at hazard zone as you might step on some tiny pieces of glass. Aaarrgg!! He took and threw everything from his own toys, kitchen wares, remote control of all kind, plates, glass, my makeup, EVERYTHING that he can grab by that evil tiny hand! I was telling this to my friend and she said maybe D was mad or angry at something and i said NO he was not...in fact he found pleasure in watching me yelling like crazy and spanking him! Gosh....

Hub is going away again, and it was nice of him to loan some DVDs for me to kill time as i'll be on leave until when he's back. I was planning now on how to spend my time with the disaster in peace. Thank God for the creation of 'the cage' a.k.a babycot.

Prawn Balls

2008-04-23T13:44:00.001+08:00

Ingredients
•200g Prawns, deveined and chopped
•3 cm Ginger, chopped
•2 garlic cloves, chopped
•1 red chilli, seeds removed and chopped
•50g Coriander, chopped
•1 spring onion, chopped
•2 tbsp cornflour
•1 egg
•1 tbsp Sesame Oil
•1 tbsp rice wine
•1 tbsp light soy sauce
•1 pinch Salt
•750ml vegetable oil, to deep fry
•0.5 lime, juice
Method
1. Tip the prawns, ginger, garlic, chilli, coriander, spring onion and cornflour into a food processor - and blend until well mixed. Add the egg, sesame oil,
rice wine, soy sauce and salt - blitz once more to combine all the ingredients.

2. Heat the vegetable oil in a wok over a medium heat. Drop teaspoons of the mixture into the hot oil and deep fry, turning over when golden on one side.
3. Lift the prawn balls out with a slotted spoon when golden brown – they should take about 2 minutes on each side. Drain on absorbent kitchen paper

4. Squeeze lime juice over them before serving and serve straight away with a shop-bought chilli sauce.

Congratulations to...Me!

2008-04-18T13:31:00.007+08:00

Yup...i passed..not that i expect to flunk but all these rumours about how JPJ will fail you the first time so that you'll pay another RM30 to sit for another test has got the better of me...the key was...well, the usual school days ritual la...read and understand..and during the test make sure you double-check all your answers before hitting the 'end-test' button...

While i was waiting for my result to be printed and certified, i noticed that most candidates that day have flunked their tests, not difficult to tell la..just looked at the chop..blue/black chop..PASS, red chop..FAIL..some candidates even blamed the computers for 'not working properly'..gosh..

So, next up in my quest to be a licensed driver is...attending a SIX freakin' boring hours of workshop..i've scheduled mine to be on tomorrow..no time wasting..i don't know what to expect during those hours but to learn how to change flat tyres...hmm..imagine that..6 wonderful hours, a bunch of strangers, changing flat tyres....sounds fun isn't it?! ;/

Beef and Coriander Lettuce Wraps

2008-04-17T18:08:00.002+08:00

Ingredients
· 6 shiitake mushrooms, dried
· 1 tbsp groundnut oil
· 2 garlic cloves, chopped
· 2 cm fresh root ginger, finely grated
· 200g Beef fillet, minced
· 1 tbsp light soy sauce
· 2 tbsp oyster sauce
· 2 tbsp rice wine
· 2 baby gem lettuce, leaves separated
· 1 tbsp coriander leaves, chopped
Method
1. Soak the dried Chinese mushrooms in hot water for 20 minutes before draining from the soaking water and finely chopping.
2. Heat the oil in a wok over a high heat and toss in the garlic, ginger, mushrooms and beef.

Stir fry for 1 minute and then add the rice wine, soy sauce and oyster sauce.

Continue frying for another 4-5 minutes, stirring all the time.
3. Place a tablespoon of the meat mixture on each cupped lettuce leaf, sprinkle with coriander and serve straight away.

Miso Soup

2008-04-15T08:50:00.002+08:00

Ingredients
1 litre water
3 tbsp miso
2 tbsp dashi
275g Tofu, firm and diced
2 crispy Chinese seaweed, dried
1 Spring onions, shredded

Method
Bring the water to a simmer in a large saucepan.

Add the miso, dashi granules, tofu, seaweed and spring onions.

Reheat and serve.